Facebook Fast Unofficial Last Day

I started Sunday night, I was going to do this til Wednesday night for Elder Led Prayer at my church. I thought why not do it longer? I went on Facebook Friday to email someone about mission fundraising and my thought before this was "just one message, then get off don't look at anything, don't post anything" Surely, when I sent that message I clicked on my 19 notifications and 3 messages to find: I'm not the center of the world. Most of them were invites to events, and none asking how I've been for the past week. Well, if that wasn't a humbling experience. Nothing is about me, I'm not as awesome as I think I am. Just like I learned my first semester of college that back home people like my family and school still do stuff without me, still glorify God and not me. When I skimmed the smorgasbord of statuses I easily jumped back into peoples lives (without them really noticing) and then I asked myself what is the point of Facebook everyday, 20 times a day to me now? Compared to God, nothing. I know that Question and Answer is far more easier said than done, because I still have idols in my heart--that I thought were gone, I wish were gone, I have to pray about daily. But, that's just it. Daily-we know daily according to us, we want to do in a day, daily in our mundane. But, does any of that consist of daily: as in the cross? Daily as in our need for Him? Daily as in His new mercies? Daily as in how much we give glory to where it's not deserved or belonged? I've come to believe that in my foolishness of idolatry; God is always there. No matter how far I run, no matter how much I beat myself up over it, no matter how many times I repent. God is so much bigger, so solid, and so unfailing. The Gospel is beyond all of my shortcomings.

Facebook Fast Day 2

I never realized how many times I get on Facebook: when I'm waiting to do something, when I'm alone, when I'm bored, when I want to get comfort from others in knowing tangibles are there when I need approval, I just post a status. The first thing I do with a computer is type in my login for Facebook as routine, not even noticing I'm doing it. Without being on Facebook so much time has been wasted and I don't even know what to do with this time. Facebook is an idol for me it controls me, that it's not even a second thought of going to Facebook. I check it for comfort, and I seek approval with statuses. I don't have this strong "I need to get on Facebook right now" desire to just login but I do miss it. I do somewhat long for it and count how many days it is until I get to login. I've thought about many "brilliant" statuses to put on Facebook. I've thought about Facebook and everything about it in times I could've thought about God and everything about Him. Even when I don't have Facebook I'm not looking to Him, but other things like email: how many times can I check my email a day, expecting to see new ones just like statuses. I look to my phone and TV. I look to other things that aren't God. Why is that? More Idolatry-more idolatry and yet I don't feel the weight of your glory and don't care about your beauty. I pray for unbelief in the Gospel that I have yet to fully understand and grasp and seek. I ask for you to break me, help me to run to you instead of away. When I am alone help my heart wander to you in my thoughts, in my living, in my heart. God let this not be a fast, that is reliant on myself because I will fail, because this would be meaningless and I might as well stop doing this now. Please reveal yourself to me, let me listen and know you more. Let my desire and longing be yours. I feel lately I've been relying on myself, giving myself applause from things that are yours-things I'm learning, talent, things I'm doing. I can't rely on myself to get this right. I can't rely on myself to bring me back to you. I can't rely on myself to understand what I can't. I can't rely on myself-but I have been. God, help me feel this desperation and hope in you-my words ring true, but does my heart? I love you for your grace and mercy!!

It won't be long until we meet again

This past BUSY week consisted of not just the usual school but two fundraisers for my mission trip to Thailand. One of them was "Crafting for Missions" "Crafts, Oh Crafts how I just love thee!" God has been providing so much during this fundraising process leading up to my leaving...MUCH MORE THAN I COULD EVER IMAGINE! God blessed me with the best friends in the world donated their time and efforts to this night, and I am so thankful for them! Remembering back to last night and the people that God brought to craft night were perfect; just like Him to plan for something that extravagant! The day of crafts was so overwhelming I did not stop to see and soak in what God had done. I can say that everything that happened yesterday was about God. The conversations that were being had, the fellowshipping with the friends He has blessed us with, ministering to non-believers, the plethora of free craft supplies, food for our stomachs. Even the crafts were just reflections of who God is: the way he created us so differently (everyone's crafts), His love for us that we would have the desire to love Him and show it (crafts with verses or Jesus), reminders to rely on Him and pray for others (prayer string thing). Everything about this night brought glory to His name and kingdom. We raised over $100 this week to go toward my mission trip to Thailand-what a blessing!!! I have never seen anything like this!! Since I have accepted this mission trip He has definitely been strengthen my dependence and longing for Him. The more I see how beautiful His glory is the more I surrender to the things of this world and then....He blows me away and steals my heart again and again. I am so thankful that I can say "again and again".


I want to say thank you to all who are praying and supporting me on this journey!!

Here are some crafts that I made last night and are on sale at my EtsyShop:SticStic Store by withlove Alicia for my Mission Trip!



"The Lord is my portion", says my soul, therefore I will hope in Him. The Lord is good to those who wait for him, to the soul who seeks him."-Lementations 3:24-25